A Sad Friendship

It was wonderful at first. Positivity thought she was helping. Miserable and unhappy, Negativity also thought she was helping. However, it wasn't long into their connection that Negativity started to feel consistently more miserable. ...

Humming Energy

Observation through my subjective perception:   When we are little our small bodies hum with energy.  The energy is innocent.  We feel it here, we feel it there, we feel it everywhere. We have little intellect to subdue this energy and the...

A heiroglyphic meander

Recording my trip once again, I place some hieroglyphics on a blank page... a bidding from somewhere of which I am ignorant. A bidding I comply with all the same.  It feels like a stream flowing from an unknown source and trusting it has been a...

The Siren

Asking for more when one is currently full is a sign of a deficiency. Having a hunger within that calls is a need request from the soul, to express itself. It has a lonely feel. In that loneliness,  choosing sociability is the first impulse. And...

Waiting for the next tide

Today I am feeling the violence erupting far from me although distance doesn't stop it from infiltrating my being. Today is the kind of day when I feel the negativity of this world and buckle underneath its weight. Today is the last card placed, in...

Voracious Curiosity

I like to peer into things.  I have a voracious curiosity. I like to take things apart figuring out how they work. In a reality where a plethora of puzzles is commonplace someone who has a passionate curiosity can cause shit to be disturbed. ...

A First Among Firsts

I am beautiful, I suddenly think.  A feeling  of elation spreads echoing throughout the spaces within me. It is an intense understanding of my own beauty that causes the blissful glow and in its authenticity, it is a first. It is a beauty that can...

Evaluating

I reach for the chain binding him and he slaps my hand away. Hearing only the rattle of criticism, he feels not the kindness with which I offer the information. Kindness instead has an ugly face for him.  An alien in his mind, when kindness gazes...

Calm

I can now reach a state of peace quite easily although I continue to use outside crutches. One of my largest crutches is music. I love that others who understand this importance are also creating music to make it easier to reach this state. It is...

Lament

A lament. A soft whisper of pain rising into the ether. A lament that can not be heard. It is instead a feeling. A spiritual wish and hope for love. Love trumps the physical if we accept evolution's invitation. The lament is the result of peaceful...

the wave

the wave rises and wanes it is gentle if I accept it turbulent if I don't as it passes through me I feel the energy of life enliven me... today I heard a doctor state that it is healthy to struggle he said that without struggle we would not evolve...

The Familiar... a child of family?

After being away from the routine of my home life, I return and once more, happily immerse myself in familiar waters.  Nestling, relaxing into the well worn corners of my life, I do so with relief from a spent energy.  I take note of what's what, a...

Today's Entry

I am in a phase of loss.  Not a gut wrenching loss that rips away my entrails as it leaves but rather numerous tiny losses that leave my life looking a bit like Swiss cheese. But this holey atmosphere also means that there is space for new things...