It sucks, does it not?

Sometimes, oftentimes, it just sucks big time, does it not? 

 

I wonder why I keep at it.  But of course, I know that if there was an easy, guaranteed positive consequential exit, I would take it.

 

Shit man! People are horrible to each other! No?

 

Sure there are controlled ways out of this reality, however, I am not privy to it.  Anyways, in choosing suicide, I would leave a puzzling legacy for the people left, my children and grandchildren. 

 

Hell at this moment, I think without much thought about it, is what we define as reality, no?

 

Oh man, what we do to each other.  I don’t have to wonder what hell would be like, I know where it is, right here on earth.

 

Oh sure, I am supposed to see the positive and some days I do.  But today, I see nothing other than stupidity, arrogance, and fear.

 

Yes, some of us, gallant that we are, choose loving ways to help each other, promoting a new way forward.

 

They are magnificent!  That they continue looking for positive ways to move us forward, conquers my deepest admiration.

 

I love your efforts.  Please forgive me that I am presently  drained of any desire to continue.

 

But yet I know this is temporary, and soon it will pass.

 

Eventually, I will feel an ambition and that desire will point the way forward.

 

In the meantime, I sit here and marvel that I came into being to realize that reality sucks!

 

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Comments (8)

  1. TomasSISI

    I am sorry for all your sorrows and wish there was something I could do that would lift this veil from you. I think we do not have an easy opt-out because there are times we would take it when it is better for us that we do not. Still it would be nice if we could say. “OI. That’s it. I’m outta here.”

    October 07, 2016
    1. greunie

      From a sensitive place of sadness, I made the error of watching the news and suddenly I was thrown over into a dark misery of negativity. You are wise to say that it’s a good thing there is no easy way out of here or in moments like this, we would indeed take it. For the moment I was overwhelmed by the evidence of how fear is winning. Thank you for your care… I appreciate your kind words.

      October 07, 2016
  2. funfreak

    Well, I don’t think that’s why you came into being, and yes, reality can really suck. I don’t know what prompted this specifically, but it’s such a huge departure from your usual posts and I really feel your pain and frustration. I hope it passes soon. I’m reaching out my hand to hold, my friend.

    October 07, 2016
    1. greunie

      I was overwhelmed when I threw up this post. As I commented to Tom, I was in a sensitive sad place and made an incorrect choice of watching the news. Suddenly I was overcome by the waves of fear and negativity that is in the world. I couldn’t block it and misery had its way with me. The post is the result! Today I am working myself out of it by choosing more positive influences. The fear in this world does not need another inductee! Lovely lovely to see your words and loving reach out.

      October 07, 2016
      1. drivefaastakechances

        I’m glad “we” are all here and find our momentary lapse of positivity met with friendship and rejoice knowing our singular nemisis is fear—as we choose to learn verses succumb. Arms interlocked in braced force is how I choose to see us come together in faith that there are stronger-willed,intelligent and decent humans out here extending hands, daily. refuting and refusing to the best of our abilities.

        October 17, 2016
        1. greunie

          Your words are wonderful.

          October 17, 2016
  3. Wheresmycoffee

    Greuni,
    I’ve been absent for a LONG time, but your words touched my heart as it has ever and anon. Yes, there are times that life SUCKS with no other description applicable. I’ve been through one of those periods myself of late, but let me relate that life has SOOOO much to offer to offset those negatives. Please understand that your thoughts and your very existence means so much to us plebes in the cyber world. You are the voice of beauty and compassion in a desolate wilderness of ugliness. You shed light on a dark world my friend.

    December 11, 2016
    1. greunie

      Your comment touches me deeply, thank you so much for your loving words.

      December 12, 2016