Sometimes, oftentimes, it just sucks big time, does it not?
I wonder why I keep at it. But of course, I know that if there was an easy, guaranteed positive consequential exit, I would take it.
Shit man! People are horrible to each other! No?
Sure there are controlled ways out of this reality, however, I am not privy to it. Anyways, in choosing suicide, I would leave a puzzling legacy for the people left, my children and grandchildren.
Hell at this moment, I think without much thought about it, is what we define as reality, no?
Oh man, what we do to each other. I don’t have to wonder what hell would be like, I know where it is, right here on earth.
Oh sure, I am supposed to see the positive and some days I do. But today, I see nothing other than stupidity, arrogance, and fear.
Yes, some of us, gallant that we are, choose loving ways to help each other, promoting a new way forward.
They are magnificent! That they continue looking for positive ways to move us forward, conquers my deepest admiration.
I love your efforts. Please forgive me that I am presently drained of any desire to continue.
But yet I know this is temporary, and soon it will pass.
Eventually, I will feel an ambition and that desire will point the way forward.
In the meantime, I sit here and marvel that I came into being to realize that reality sucks!