Once You Know

When you find out where your love lies, it is an amazing feeling.  

 

From one moment to the next, it is as if you have stepped through into paradise.  

 

Nevertheless, reality has not changed.  Suddenly it has an added slant or rather a veil drops.  A dark shadow recedes that while in place hid the splendor of this life.  

 

For the first time, without any doubt of its perfection, something clicks into where it should have been.  It feels like Deja vu.  Without question, you are in love. 

 

"This is it, there is no more searching. I am home."  Trusting the security of bliss, the stress falls away and the universe reveals itself to you.  You know.

 

As a child, I asked my great aunt, "What is love, auntie?"  

 

She answered, "There will be no doubt when you know."

 

What a confusing answer I thought.  How can I know something that I don't know - by recognizing it? How can I recognize something when I do not know what it is?  Wouldn't someone have to show it to me first?  Would it not be necessary to have been introduced to something you previously did not know, to meet and know it, once you meet for the first time.

 

In answer to my questions, she just kept repeating the same sentence confusing me more.  She could not show me.  It was completely up to me to find something of which I was ignorant but would recognize when finally coming across it.

 

Through the years, after recognizing love many times over and asking, "Is this love?  It sure feels wonderful - this must be it."  then losing it, I learned what love was not.

 

Feeling wonderful was a result of love, or so I believed - BUT - after a while - when consistently it would change and become not so wonderful, I despaired.  "That! - was not love," I would say.

 

When I did find my love, it was a total surprise and yet, there was no doubt, my aunt was right, I knew it without doubt.

 

The surprise was that it was a private revelation involving no one else but me.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Comments (12)

  1. Dino01

    “There will be no doubt when you know.” It is a funny answer. It is quite vague. Talking from my own experience, I have felt the way your great aunt describes several times. At the moment, I didn’t have a doubt that what I was feeling was love. But yet in none of these circumstances did I get the object of my affections. I will fall in love again. Love doesn’t seem to come once but several times. And so, a good question could be how to preserve, obtain and make the love increase in a relationship. Anyway, I didn’t understand the end of your blog. Were the love you seek coming from you towards yourself? Because that could be just about the biggest plot twist. Haha

    July 03, 2017
    1. greunie

      Exactly. It is the biggest plot twist ever!

      July 03, 2017
  2. depressedgirl

    I think I have only been in love once and that is with my present husband. I have thought I was in love before, but it was actually different phases of extreme like. At least that is what I think. As far as myself I am not sure that I love myself at all. I’ve never known the answer to that for sure. I’ve thought I liked myself. Most of the time I have spent a great deal of time hating myself.

    July 06, 2017
    1. greunie

      July 07, 2017
  3. roe
    I’ve heard what you said is true, yet I’ve never experienced it!!! So very happy for you! I wrote 2 blogs today! Thoughts.com was love at first sight for me and meeting you and getting to know your writing was icing on the cake! Hope to get back here more often! I’m starting a whole new chapter! 👍

    July 07, 2017
    1. greunie

      That sounds exciting!

      July 07, 2017
      1. roe
        Every time I try to make a heart it turns into little black question marks???

        Yikes

        July 10, 2017
        1. greunie

          It’s the only one I know. It’s the < symbol and then a 3 together without space.

          July 10, 2017
          1. roe

            OK here goes

            July 11, 2017
            1. greunie

              Success!

              July 11, 2017
  4. morningafter7

    Wow. Just wow. I needed this tonight. Thank you

    July 10, 2017
    1. greunie

      to you!

      July 10, 2017